Researcher as a Homo Faber in the Lands of Homo Ludens

This study aims at making an autoanalysis regarding research motivations, current technical and material conditions and researcher’s position. Because each autoanalysis includes self-reflexivity, there is a lot of personal experience and subjective expression throughout the text. For this reason, I examine my position and experience as a researcher on two digital game research projects which I have been part of. The support of these two projects by TUBITAK also includes an experience in the meaning of institutional support for scientific research. As a result, this text is more of a personal story than research experience, institutional support and adaptation of individual curiosity, and an academic study of this processes. This story also includes topics such as research, pleasure and disappointment, intellectual antipathy and coherence of institutional habitus